Thursday, April 17, 2008

First Crush..The first stupidly cute memory!!

Hi Reader,

I plan to do this regularly and more often now....Yeah i mean blogging...Wat Else ??

Anyway, remember when you were 6( if you are a boy) and 9 (if you are a girl) and X( if u neither), when you first looked at the opposite sex (or the same..err...i am a 21st century unbiased writer) and felt how beautiful they looked, and how much you would love to be next to them. How you imagined your princess who you would protect with all the guts..or your prince who you would love till the world dies. How you would excel at sports or beat up other boys to be the macho man truly deserving of her attention and eyes ( if u were a nerd..sorrie..ur dream would look something like topping the class and creating a new equivalent to internal combustion engine for her..n with such dreams i m sure u haven't gotten beyond!!!)

How one's best time of the day is when they are silently dreaming about the other person, admiring the way their hair falls on their forehead or their atypical way of doing things..and sometimes even what they eat..and how lovely her mom cooks....

How lovely is to see them dress up and play in the park..or their giggly laughter..how their recognition of us..would make our chest swell like a victorious warrior..and give us a smile that any nut in the world can say goes beyond our ears..n thus puring our hearts out..

How we would do anything to see them smile..and love to yap to them till evening even if it meant scolding at home..

and even if we never got to know them..coz they were our seniors..or in other section..we dreamt all these things anyway..

And then you realize they don't look at you like that..or they like someone else...n soon enough in your early teens..they hook up with someone else..CRUSHED!!!..gone..flowers wilt...rains pour, slow songs seem nice..food doesn't taste good..and life seems meaningless...

Have you ever gone through this syndrome..the infatuation rejection syndrome..or the first crushed crush syndrome..

Did u cry...felt meaningless...USELESS...felt unworthy of the entire opposite sex..and felt you won't get someone as good as him/her...have u been through looking at your crying eyes in the mirror..slept on a wet pillow..felt heavy in the heart...did u believe life would be cool again n u wud read this n be laughing n nodding at the same time..

As you probably grew up ur teens into your late teens ..you would look back and laugh at the silliness of your sissiness..you would sit across probably the same bunch of friends you hid these feelings from and laugh at how stupid you were..

You would realize how beautiful u now look..how confident of your body n self..n how the past seems so irreverent...

I m just tryin to put across a simple fact of life:

With heartbreaks will come tears..but while you cry that within a few months or years..you wud be a smarter ..more good looking person laughing at your own self..and when you will be all this better person you would love your single hood and thank your stars you didn't get sucked by that crush or relationship and instead learned ..improved..n became the present YOU.

YOU are beautiful with every passing moment, and thus you keep deserving better every passing moment...so love your heartbreaks.coz they lead you to the single YOU of tomorrow which in advertisers word is "NEW" "IMPROVED" "BETTER THAN EVER BEFORE"..

Crush your Crushes,!!!

P.s.: do leave a note on how you felt after reading this..n how i can improve...love..Rishabh.

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